Amy & Aron's

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*cracks knuckles*

People ask why I would want to know about my love life after being married for so long. I can tell you, there are a million reasons why a woman who has been married almost 14 years would want to talk to a psychic advisor. Let me give you my whole story.

My husband and I tell each other that we love each other every day BUT on Valentine's Day, I expect to hear it with a little more pizzazz. Maybe over a nice meal adorned with flowers, a card, and balloons, AND once a decade, in a NICE motel room with the TV off. 

What if I'm feeling a little "off" this year? What if I am feeling a certain way and don't want to feel like I am reading the signs wrong. This is why I need California Psychics. After 14 years (14 years February 19th) I feel like my gut is an awesome guide to the situations we’re in. My husband is a creature of habit and patterns. He could probably say the same about me but, I am a little concerned that the distance between us emotionally and in our bed is getting a bit bigger by the day.

I am not ashamed of our current situation. We have a lot of time invested here, and personally, I feel like we have grown so much together over the past 14 years that I'm scared of us growing apart. Time has a way of shaping people. The circumstances like triumphs and illness along the way make us the people that we are. I am a little bit concerned that the illness my husband has been fighting for so long is pulling him away from me. I am feeling his lower tone, desire for more alone time, and the distance between us. 

It feels like the weight of a boulder on my chest. Nothing I can say or do eases it; it's the complete opposite actually. If I mention it, it's an argument because he feels like I'm targeting him or complaining. To clear the air, I don't want to argue or make him feel like I don't understand. I just need to know where we stand because, in a lot of ways, I feel alone here.

As quiet as it is, it rings like a boat horn through my head in the form of questions and insecurity. The last thing I want to do is add more pressure on him by asking him questions like "why am I not important anymore?", "Why do you talk to friends instead of me?," "Are you distancing yourself on purpose?" I ask other questions like "How are you feeling?," "Are you scared for the surgery?," "Do you want to talk about it?" and I get one-word vague answers that are so general and generic that a stranger would have more to say. 

I know this pending surgery, yes another one, is already weighing on him. It's only been 2 months since the last surgery and he had 5 surgeries last year. I just see him seeking other people's conversation instead of mine. I know he needs a distraction but I want to scream, I am still here! I am here right alongside the illness and the pain. Don't leave me too! My face doesn't represent his illness but, I am afraid it's a constant reminder. I'm afraid he doesn't see the "Me" that has been here since before all of that started, only the "Me" that is here to dress wounds, change clothing and bedding, bring meals, and help him be mobile.

I am afraid that the extra responsibility that is expected of me, is something that I am resentful of and just not seeing it. I love knowing that my career path has allowed me to care for my husband myself instead of having a nurse in our home. While caring for his physical health needs am I overlooking his human emotional needs? Is that something he sees as a turn-off? Is he seeing me not as a wife but as someone that's obligated to care for his medical needs? There is a fine line there and I feel like I am tiptoeing around it by being his caregiver and his significant other.  I am still fun too. I still laugh and play.

He likes to remind me that I am not his mother, but he has to understand what I am is his caregiver and his wife. He is my patient and my spouse. That alone makes me rip the Band-Aids a little slower and feel like I know what he can and can't tolerate. It makes me feel like my voice is stronger when he is weaker but I don't want it to drown his voice out. Like I said, it's a fine line. 

I don't want to seem inconsiderate. I know he is going through a lot personally and there are times in life when you HAVE to focus on your own healing but, we have done it as a team for so many years and new comments and conversations have been coming up lately that I don't know how to participate in.

Sometimes he mentions the events in his life that he would go back and "change if he could" and what if he "would have done This instead of That." That's all normal conversation but mixed in with the increased alone time, I can't help but wonder if I am one of the things that he would go back and change. Does he regret having me along in this journey? Does he feel overwhelmed and busting out of our life together? Is our life plus his life not measuring up?

He is mentioning "I" instead of "Us" more lately and I don't share that feeling. It makes me feel abandoned and a bit hurt. I know this isn't the life he had planned for himself, but in my defense, this isn't the life I planned for myself. I know it's not the lifestyle anyone actually plans for but it's our life and our adventures. I know that's easy for me to say because I am not the one going through the procedures. 

That brings me to my call with California Psychics. My main question for my psychic advisor is "Is my relationship ok? Even though we are still in these troubled waters, are we going in the same direction?”

I was looking through the sea of faces and browsing the profiles, yes, I treat them like dates. I look for the connection. I was searching for someone that specialized in Love and Romance and used tools like tarot cards or numerology. I have been very interested in that lately. That's when I came across Psychic Lynette. Her profile is perfect. I watched her intro video, two thumbs up! I booked an immediate callback, grabbed all of my stuff -notebook, pen, drink, backup drink (talking makes me thirsty and I didn't know how long I was going to be on), and the other handset. I don't want anyone in the house picking up the phone while I'm on, it's personal to me. 

The phone rang within a few seconds.

I chucked all my stuff on the bed while I listened to the recording letting me know it was California Psychics, how much I have on my balance, and which advisor was being connected to me. I love it that there is no wait time from when I click the callback and when the call comes in. 

After our introduction, she said, “you sound so stressed.” From that moment, I wanted to hear every syllable that came out of her mouth. I always use my best phone voice while on the phone and she saw right through it. “Yes, I’m stressed and I’m hoping you can help.” She was so empathic that she picked up on my distress before I fully started to explain my reason for calling. She was like an old friend and I melted into our conversation like someone I had known forever.

I asked her if she could tell if my relationship with my husband is okay.

Right away, without even asking my husband’s name or birthday, she stared in:

How I relate to this reading so far:

I am feeling completely beside myself at this point! 

He is every one of those things! He used to be an ironworker. He used to be the breadwinner of the family. I used to be a stay-at-home mom with the house and kids as my job, not 2 full-time jobs in addition to being his caregiver. He is feeling deteriorated and overwhelmed! He’s had 6 toes amputated and 8 major surgeries over the past decade! Another surgery is scheduled for this week with emergency amputations of bones on both feet and one more toe coming off. 

He has been aggravated, agitated, and powerless over this situation and the infections we just can’t get a hold of. 

Where I feel like we are fighting this together he feels like he is fighting his own body and it’s winning. 

He is a very protective guy and independent. He worked hard and always imagined himself retiring from his shop job at 70 and us traveling as our leisurely golden years passed by. That’s not even an option anymore. He feels trapped in an eroding body with a fully functioning brain. He describes it as his own hell.

She said I’m seeing a lot of 2s. Everything I’m seeing is 2s. He’s going to be seeing improvements and progress within 2 months. Her psychic predictions have me hoping for the next few months to see what will happen. 

**I’ve been working on this post for a few days, and I have to admit, I am completely blown away. My advisor and I didn't discuss my husband's health issues in detail as medical advice and health is not a topic that California Psychics will cover. She knew I was concerned with his health and that he had some current problems he was facing, that was it. She had no way of knowing what we found out this week! Three of the "2's" have already come true.**

1. The first one, he had 2 MRIs this week. We started this week knowing he would need a check-up on one foot, ended up being both feet. (another "2").

2. He's having surgery on both feet (we didn't even discuss surgery). 

3. 2 new doctors are taking my husband's case. A Vascular Surgeon and an Infectious Disease doctor (another thing we didn't discuss). 

She didn't know my husband's birthday is in exactly 2 months to the day of the reading, I didn't put that together until after the call. 

As she was talking she was doing tarot cards. She explained as she drew them:

I love how those cards were explained! 

2 of Cups - We have a very strong connection. We love each other very much. Romance is coming into our relationship. 

9 of swords - Feeling overwhelmed and very stressed out. Having anxiety, stress, fear, and uncertainty.

Magician - Everything is working out. Improvement is coming. Magic will be returning to our relationship.

I have to say a huge thank you to California Psychics and Psychic Lynette (my new best friend in my head).

I feel like I have some real insight into all of this uncertainty. I have been beside myself with emotions and was really needing some clarity. I feel like such a huge weight has been lifted off of me by talking to her and I can't wait for our next reading. 

You can find the perfect online psychic for you on California Psychics. They have so many qualified psychics to choose from that read on different topics with different methods and tools. 

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